Taking its toll

Not on me, on my Reibun. :( She can't sleep, she cries all the time because of pain and depression, I also just get this sad vibe from her. And the cutting has resumed. *Sigh* Cathy picked up the new kitten for her and brought it over and I guess she was really happy about it at first, but then she just looked at and started crying. She didn't hurt her or even put her down, but snuggled her tight and just cried. Cathy stayed a while but she had something she had to do here and I've been checking in on her every 15-30 minutes.

I know they say to not let people on the internet bother you, but these are people saying things about you. People calling you a racist and then others favoriting or retweeting it which just affirms that they think the same thing. It'll be deleted or unrecognizeable today. :(

Her last Tweets summed up this fucked up way of thinking and thin-skinned society we live in. Why not answer her question nicely? Why not discuss instead of accuse and attack? I know people are mad. I know there are racists and hate groups out there looking to disrupt, pick fights and hurt people. Her Tweet wasn't that.

I don't know why you care about humanity so much, Reibun. I lose faith in it more and more at 5:00 PM every day. That there are people like that scum on your blog in this world are proof that our society is gonna end up like Ancient Rome sooner or later. All great empires crumble eventually.

I'm not all bunnies and crazy min pins, I see what's going on in the world and I'm not fucking stupid. America loves to destroy people. Whether it be my beautiful wife by a bunch of ignornant Twits or a comedy legend like Bill Cosby.

I was raped twice, fucking violated. The first time by three girls in a shower who beat me and stuck objects and their fingers and fists in me vaginally and anally. I never reported it. My ex raped and tried to kill me and luckily I didn't have to report it because of how it worked out. A rape kit and testifying in court was almost as bad as the rape itself. If I was popular on some site or social media, do you know what kind of vile shit I'd read?

Anyway. Bill Cosby has helped kids, done all sorts of charity work and entertained millions upon millions of people and now he's brought down by a bunch of women who wanted him to help further their careers, came alone to hotel rooms, got "raped" and kept quiet for 30 years. One of these cases was in the 60's which would place it in a turbulant time for race relations. A black celebrity raping a white woman? Come on!

You're all full of shit, and I'm tired of people being torn down for sex and racism. Doesn't matter how much good they've done, doesn't matter that Rei was just asking a question, just hurt them for saying or doing the "wrong thing" and don't even look into who, why or how. Just pass judgement and be an asshole to someone that might end up being a good friend.

People are shit. I love Rei and Adrabun and the people in my life, but I really don't care what happens to the rest. I'd rather talk to Misa and Crumb than go on Twitter, honestly

Made this headband last night, I hope no one is offended by it.

Love you so very much, Reibun. ♥♥♥

"I'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side" - Nine Inch Nails "The Fragile" 

We'll watch it burn together, babe. 

XOXO

©Lacebun Dark in association with Jello Puddin' Pops

I need this sign!

Reibun is adamant about the WATER VAMPIRES rule. ;) Now we just need a pool... JANICE!!!! lol. I took Neurontin. hehehe!

XOXO

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Just No

K, so I saw this on TV while putting out some new magazines in the waiting area. It's from the Steve Harvey talk show. He brought out a designer who makes clothes from every day things instead of fabric. The one on the far right is pretty cool. It's made from pistachios and a bunch of items from a party store. Even the pink one isn't bad. The one on the far left, though... WTF!? 

It's a "Ninja Princess" gown made from cupcake liners and has nunchuks on the bustline. It's hard to see from this, but it's so bulky and poofy and where the hell is the ninja in any of it? 

I love unique fashion and creativity, but some people just don't have it. Even Steve looked at the designer like "Really?", the model seemed uncomfortable and the crowd was sorta half out of it. Then he has to tell her how talented she is. 

I just spent like 10 minutes bitching about a 3 minute TV segment. And it was a rerun... lol 

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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Back at the Bun Bin

So I made it home ok, but I've decided it's gonna be a while before I fly again. Turbulence sucks, I'm not a sexist, but I hate male flight attendants, especially when they bother me every 20 seconds as an excuse to stare at my chest. *Sigh* Oh, and annoying people who kick my seat. Ugh!

But I was so happy to see my Reibun and all our critter kids! ♥ Crumb Bum was excited to see me, then ran away when I dropped a piece of luggage on the floor... Haha! I don't know if Reibun mentioned it anywhere, but we'll have our new kitten on Thursday! :) We're currently working on a name! ♥

Not much else tonight, though. Very tired and it's back to the job tomorrow.

Baby Misa and Lacebun collage! :) <3 

Misa - Creator of the Bun Revolution! :p

Hope everybun had a nice day!

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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Home in the morning!

I just wanted to post real quick and let everybun know that I had a good day today and it looks like my uncle is gonna be fine. :) I'll be leaving here early to go to the airport (long ride) and will be home around lunchtime. I hope everybun had a good weekend and thanks to my Bun Support Network (BSN) for being so awesome and supportive! Love you all! Nitey Nite!

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡
 
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Taking the good with the bad.

My uncle got released today! Yay! :) He's gonna spend the night here with us just so we can keep an eye on him and then we're gonna bring him home tomorrow and spend the day there. Sorry, Reibun, but I'm not sure that there will be a repeat of last night. :( I'm happy he's ok and I don't regret coming to see him, but I've been having some issues since yesterday.

I love seeing my family, but coming back here is always a mental struggle. Everything that has happened to me in this state ends up being drudged up in my mind. Whether it's something that serves as a reminder or seeing someone, I hate all of it. It makes it hard to do anything. Before I went to MA, I essentially made myself a prisoner in my own home. I even had a separate home phone line that rang differently than the regular one so I knew it was safe to answer the phone.

Anyway, I've had a few private cries and little panic episodes here and there. I've gotten so used to Reibun being there for me in moments like that and that just makes me miss her and I feel worse. One more day.

These are my fox PJ pants. While waiting for my parents to go to bed last night, I copied the pattern onto my nails.

Came out pretty good, I think! :)

Best I can do for you tonight that I can post here, Reibun! lol 

I hope everybun is having a good weekend!

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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Weekend in Michigan

I wish I could have come here under different circumstances. How I held it together as well as I did yesterday is beyond me. If you haven't read it on Reibun's blog, my uncle John suffered a pretty bad head injury yesterday.

When my mom called me at work, I pretty much knew something had happened to someone, she never calls there. I guess it's true that instinct just sorta kicks in during situations like that. I didn't think of anything but the fact that I had to get here and make sure he was ok. I mean, I made sure Rei knew and everything, but nothing frivolous ever crossed my mind. Not what I needed or was gonna wear or anything.

I love Janice, Cathy, Rei, Adra, all of you so much for being such an amazing support system. I don't know what I'd do without you. <3

He gave everybun here a pretty good scare and while he's not out of the woods yet, they at least know he's gonna survive at this point. The swelling in his brain has decreased and he's pretty functional right now. He'll probably be in the hospital until Saturday and after that he's gonna have a lot of doctors appointments in his future. He doesn't care much for doctors and has been neglecting his health for a long time, so they've found some other medical things he needs to address along with this.

I know everyone dies at some point. And I'm not complaining about it, but I've had an underlying sense of dread since my early teens that he and my parents will be gone long before most people have to start entertaining these thoughts. My mom is nearly 70 and she is the youngest of my core family unit. (Brianne is already dead as far as I'm concerned) If they're all alive when I'm in my late 30's, I'll be a very lucky girl. I don't like thinking about it, but this has shoved it to the front of my mind once again. *Sigh*

On to more positive things! I did end up going shopping with my mom today because I needed more warm weather clothing for here. 'Course, I ended up with like 30 other things, too. >.> My mom insisted on going to Victoria's Secret with me because "It's nothing she hasn't seen and can't handle." She couldn't handle it and I don't think she's seen a lot of the lingerie that's come out in the last 15-20 years. lol. I'm not a huge fan of that store, but I needed stuff (I actually did on that front) and it was what was available. Good thing they don't sell harness bras! lol.

It is nice being here and it's more comfortable weather-wise because we're right near the water. I wish Reibun could've come along and under different circumstances, of course. I have stuff to keep myself occupied here, but it's not the same as when we're in bed playing video games at night and she starts yelling at her game. Or Pornhub... Haha. Miss you so much, sweetie. :(

I hope everybun is having a nice day and I'll probably be online here and there throughout the weekend. :)

XOXO

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Minnesota Teenager Moves East - Family Guy

I don't SAY things like this, but I know people who do. I do have the accent, but I sound like I'm like 8-10 years old.



Rei looked at me when we watched this episode and got a resounding "Oh, fuck you, R-less Wonder!"



*Hides*

Scotch Tape Nails

Not much going on at work today. Actually, it's so slow that I've been teaching Janice and Cathy how to do this nail technique. lol. It's not quite as the name implies. You're not actually wearing the tape on your nails.

The best thing I can liken it to is using that painters tape when you're doing multiple colors in your home. It's just that you're working on a much smaller scale. You start with a basecoat of your choosing, cut the tape into little strips (you can get as creative as you like) and use them to block off where you don't want to paint. It's incredibly simple and you usually end up with straighter lines than doing it freehand.

Here are a couple of designs I've done:

If anyone tries it out, I'd love to see! :)

Hope everybun has a nice day!

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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There should be a law against this...

This weather, I mean! It is like 90 outside, maybe higher, with dewpoints in the 70's today. I don't like the heat or the sun much, but I can take just a hot day. But add in this soup-like air and just forget it.

I know, I'm in an air conditioned building most of the day, but I'm also directly across from the door, so I get blasted with heat and AC at the same time which makes me feel crappy. Luckily it hasn't been a repeat of last Monday, but are any of them very good? lol.

I didn't even wear a lot of makeup today, to which Janice wanted to know if I was sick. You know it's hot when I don't wear much makeup! :p I felt like I was gonna suffocate just going to the car this morning. (Left it in the driveway) I've never smoked one puff of anything in my life, don't even like being near exhaust pipes. I feel bad for those stuck outside or at home without AC that have breathing problems on days like this. Please look in on them or help out anyone you see struggling.

Hope everybun is having a nice day, otherwise.

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡


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Tour of Lacebun's Beauty Shelf!

K, so I can't show you EVERY product because it would take 3 years. But I'm gonna show you my top shelf, which is the stuff I use regularly. I don't use all of these every day, just most of them... ^o^;

The Top Shelf! Where every beauty product wants to be!

This is my Yes to Tomatoes shampoo. I've used it for a while now and refuse to use anything else.

Yes to Cucumbers conditioner. I don't need it for the color care, but it works great on my hair nonetheless. 

There's a full line of "Yes To" products that you can get just about anywhere (Drug stores, retail chains, Amazon) or at yestocarrots.com

Paul Mitchell Hair Moisturizer.

Everybun is gonna think I'm weird for this...

K, so this is marketed and sold for horse manes, but it really works! I use it to thicken my hair and the proof is all over this blog. *Hides*

Moving on...

This is some Jamaican Castor Oil which promotes hair growth.

Yes to Tomatoes Shower Gel. I use this every day. :)

Yes to Tomatoes Body Butter. Just the tip of the iceberg in my skin care regimen. Notice the bunny ring? ♥

This is my Clarisonic exfoliating brush. It's sorta up in the air as to how well these actually work, but I think it does. Rei thinks I use it for other things, but I don't! ...yet...

I love this product and I've turned Rei into a fan, too. This is African Liquid Black Soap. It originated in and a lot of brands still come from Ghana. It can be used for anti-aging, oily or irritated skin, and a lot of people buy it to reduce scarring from acne. This particular brand is from the UK and works great. You might wanna read reviews before buying. Some people don't take to it well and have reactions.

Dermalogica skin exfoliating cream.

Some cleansing lotion. And the yellow/orange bottle back there is my sunscreen. I wear it every day I go out. 

Ole Henrikson African Red Tea Face Mist. Anti-aging and hydrating. 

Sonicare Toothbrush! Totally worth the investment! :) 

So that's not everything, but a good chunk of my daily routine. And please, please don't think this is all for vanity or that I'm shallow. I have to use a lot of this because of how my skin is. I'm not bullshitting when I tell you how pale I am and I have a host of dermatological issues because of it. Couple that with all the makeup I wear and it's even more necessary.

Middle shelf. I use some of this, some is Reibun's that I stole.

Bottom shelf. Either unused, almost empty or just hasn't been thrown out.

Well, I hope you enjoyed the tour, everybun!

It's Bun-Bedtime for me!

Nite Nite

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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Anime Lip Tar

I know you're away, Adrabun. But here's more lip tar for you to buy when you get back, if you haven't already.

Working on "Cutifying" more of the office... Hehe.

And a little collage I made:

Where are the checks, OCC? I'm waiting! :p

Get It Here

If the Anime shade isn't instantly on the page, 4th row down, 4th shade (going right). It is more pink than it appears in the photos. They kept coming out darker than I'd have liked. 

This weekend, a tour of some of my favorite beauty products in my bathroom! :) Yep. Mine! :p

Hope everybun had a nice day! Happy Friday!

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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The Tshirt Collection I didn't want

K, so you guys know I buy A LOT of stuff online. >.> Sometimes I get extra stuff in my packages that I didn't order. It's usually from small companies or individual sellers and people on Etsy. I don't know why they sent me these particular shirts, but I've gotten three of them! And it's not like they're even the same shirt over and over again!

They're shirts in support of Veganism. I don't have a problem with vegans or anything, but I'm not one. I don't usually wear them outside of the house, if I wear them at all. As you'll see, they're just a little snug... ^o^;;;; But I'm not gonna downplay it, my tits look AMAZING in them! Hehe! :)

I like the bunny! lol.

Uh, yeah... *BLUSH*

I just got this one. Took the pic last night. I like the word "Cowsucking" lol.

And of course, the Wifebun has plenty to say about these...

"I'll never eat meat again if you wear those every day!"

"Who the fuck is gonna think you're a vegan with all that meat packed in there!?"

"I only eat pink meat and drink breast milk."

*Baby voice* "MAMA!" *Points to her mouth*

I love her so much... LOL

Hope everybun has a nice day!

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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One of my favorite songs

I know it's not what you'd expect me to listen to, but this song is so beautiful and intelligently written and empowering. Great music is great music, I listen to everything no matter the genre.

Eminem - Legacy:

Anyone with mental health issues or that's been bullied or told they couldn't do something should find some meaning or solace in this. It's got beautiful female vocals, too.

XOXO

I learned something today

Before I get to it, I just wanted to update everybun on yesterday. Janice wasn't mad, she actually laughed about it. She also apologized for leaving me with all that in her own Janice way. I got lunch and $50 in small bills. lol. She either has more cash than she knows what to do with or just random amounts and denominations. I love her so much! ♥ Oh, and the hole in the wall has a printout of a bunny wearing a hard hat taped over it. ♥♥♥

Annnnywayyyy, yeah. I learned about something that I didn't necessarily even want or care to know about. Janice and I went to pick up lunch and the restaurant we went to has an abandoned building across the street. We pulled into the parking lot and we were the only customers at the place right then. We saw this regular looking, probably late 30's-early 40's woman at the abandoned building.

We couldn't figure out what the hell she was doing. She was like looking in through a hole in a boarded up window, then she reached in, pulled her arm out and started walking away. She saw Janice and I watching her and just stared at us until she was out of view. Of course, I have a consultant on strange and unusual behavior and I called her while watching this. lol.

According to Reibun MD, this woman was buying drugs. Apparently the way they do it is a dealer operates out of a house or rundown structure, you just go there, put money (she says they usually use a mail slot or doggy door) and your drugs come out right after.

Reibun: Is she still there?

Me: Yeah, she's staring right at us.

Reibun: Whoever's in there just doubled their money. She's gonna go do that and because she thinks you're the cops, she's gonna go grab more to kill the paranoia.

Janice heard all this and burst into laughter, as did I. I know drug addiction isn't funny, but the whole concept and just being there watching it was hilarious. Drive-Thru Dope Windows! Haha! This chick was already paranoid if she thought me and a little old lady were the cops... lol. I never knew things like this existed and seeing this woman buying crack (Rei said that's primarily what is sold like that) on her lunch break... You learn something new every day.

I also learned this:

:p

Hm, I don't appear to have a top on in this... Or do I? Can my honey figure it out? Can you? Hehe! ♥ 

Hope everybun is having a good day!

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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Crazy Bitchbun...

I hate the summer. My pale complexion makes it dangerous to go outside, which is something I don't exactly look forward to or enjoy much any other time of year. I like my job, but not necessarily the general public that it requires me to deal with. I know that's something I've gotta get over going forward, but I've got time. (Or I could open Antarctica's first nail salon!) Put asshole people in hot, humid weather and you come out with assholier people with a remainder of one insane me! Math is fun!

The good thing is that it's a slower time of year, so there aren't as many assholes as there could be. Or are there? It's not just customers I deal with. Delivery people are sometimes worse than the customers because they have their precious schedules to keep. Funny, because my shit never arrives on time... Also, Janice has decided to put a big TV in the little waiting area, but she's nowhere to be found today.

So here we go...

It's a little before 10:30 and the people delivering the TV arrived on time but they didn't have the right mount/bracket thing and the cable company was due to arrive shortly. Rather than go get the right thing, this guy and his partner decide they can make it work with what they have. To their credit, they did and it saved me the aggravation of having to rearrange everything. Thing is, the cable dude was EARLY (I know, I almost died) and he doesn't wanna wait around forever.

That these three idiots couldn't coordinate this was mind-boggling. The cable guy had to run wires and do drilling and whatever anyway, just DO IT! They start bickering over it and guess who has to play peacemaker? *Nod* Then I get these dumbasses settled and Fed-Ex shows up with an oversized order of office supplies and the guy is running late, according to him. I said "Behave yourselves!" to the three stooges and helped this idiot do his job by bringing in the boxes.

I'm hot, I'm sweaty, and starving by the time this whole ordeal is over. The stuff Fed-Ex brought can get put away tomorrow. But then the phone starts ringing and there's someone needing to reschedule. She's a total bitchbag because she's got a bunch of kids in the background. She keeps yelling at the kids, but into the phone! Her appointment isn't for 3 days, you don't have to give that much notice... I got tired of it and told her (nicely) to call back later when things were less crazy. She calls back yelling AT ME because I hung up on her. I...owe Janice a phone...and a chunk of wall...and a customer...

You don't think she'd hit (or fire) a girl with glasses do you? :p 

Honestly, I don't think she'll think twice about it. The two others working today have been keeping their distance, though. Good. 

Happy FUCKING MONDAY!!!!

XOXO

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Weekend downtime

I was up all night last night because of what happened at the ice cream place. It set off a lot of my triggers because of what he said and how he said it. It brought back the incident with my ex, being beaten and sexually assaulted by three girls in the locker room shower in high school... Just a lot of bad stuff. When things like that happen, it sets back so much of the progress I've made, makes me start fearing people and rethinking/second-guessing everything.

But through all of it, Reibun has been there for me. :) Listening to my paranoid thoughts and NOT JUDGING me... My parents, even Janice will usually tell me that it's all in my head, that I just need to calm down and think about something else. Not Reibun. She listens and will work through it with me, she just knows how to handle these things the right way.

I've kept her awake so much and she hasn't complained once. She's had a hard week herself with Timothy leaving and her pain has been horrible. We need to take it easy this weekend and just refresh ourselves. Don't not text or email or anything, we'll answer them, probably just not right away.

I know you texted Reibun earlier, Adrabun, and she says sorry for not answering right away or striking up a conversation. She kept fading in and out of sleep and then just crashed for the whole afternoon.

Got a few chores to do around the house tomorrow, but Cathy is being her awesome self and going grocery shopping for us. :) Other than that, it's just gonna be lots of lovey-dovey snuggling, video games and movies.

I hope everybun has a nice weekend, too! :)

XOXO

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Apprentice Bunny!

Apparently this is my week of surprises... Haha! Yep, along with the school announcement, I've got something else going on. I've been with Rei for nearly 5 months and I've known her mom about a year. We all know they're the sewing queens and it just had to happen that I'd get involved with it too.

Rei has been limited on what she can teach me lately because of her surgery, so Cathy has been helping out when she can. Rei doesn't know that! hehe! I've been learning things with Rei since shortly before her surgery and I made that cupcake scarf and a few little items, but Cathy has helped me make my first skirt! I'm so excited! I finished it up on my lunch break and had to try it on right away! I'm sorry that the pictures aren't that good, but I was all jittery and proud of myself. lol

(Before I put it on. Nails are fake and I've done that design before)

Sitting down in it. I was hoping to hell it didn't split apart when I stood up! Thankfully, it did not! lol (Did several tests, actually. It'll split when I get out to get gas on the way home...)

And here is an extreme closeup of the print!

:)

I'm so happy! I hope Reibun approves of the job I did! Cathy called me an educational slut! LOL "Going around behind my little girl's back and learning things without telling her! Ok, let's get to it before someone sees..." ♥♥♥ I love her and my Reibun for teaching me to do this! Another 5-10 years and I won't have to buy anymore clothes! lol Yes I will... >.>

And just 'cause, here is Reibun (begrudgingly) doing some of her exercises. ...With a stuffed guinea pig...

She's got some weight/bag thing that she's supposed to use, but I put the piggie there. :)

Hope everybun is having a nice day! :)

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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Feelings through nail art

Obviously I don't feel this way anymore, Reibun made sure of that. :) I did this at work today and yep, it's freehand. Janice knew I was sad today and she did everything she could to make me feel better, including buying me lots of yummy, unhealthy food. :) Thanks to Adrabun for her loving comment, too! I know they're just words on a screen, but they mean the world to me. <3 Everything is well now and hopefully tonight will be more peaceful. I'm so lucky to have such great people in my life, near and far. Thank you and I love you all! :)

XOXO

I'm Sorry... ;_;

As everybun knows, I have a problem with nightmares. I've told Adrabun about the way I'll wake up and absolutely lose it because of them. It's like I think I'm still in the dream. I've had a couple of these episodes since being with Rei and there have been times where she's literally had to hold me down. But when she does this, I'll often kick, claw and scream and I've hurt her. Not bad, but I don't want to hurt her or anyone... It happened last night/early this morning and it was bad.

I "woke up" from the dream and started hitting her, just sort of flailing and screaming for whoever was trying to hurt me to get off of me and leave me alone. She was awake so she was able to defend herself, but then I jumped on/tackled her... I'm such a fucking mess and I hate myself right now, I really fucking do.

I can't believe I did that. With everything she's got going on with her back and being so upset about Timothy having to go home, then I cause her more pain... She's ok, I didn't do any serious damage, but when she was struggling with me to calm me down she let out this shriek of pain that almost made my ears bleed, I know it broke my heart. :(

I felt so bad and like I had to get away, I threw on some clothes, grabbed my purse and makeup bag and my phone and came to work at 5:30 AM. I sat here and cried until it hurt. She wasn't even mad. When I was leaving she kept asking what was the matter and begging me not to go. I've talked to and texted her throughout the day and she just wants me home, especially with Timothy having gone home which just about killed her emotionally. She nearly had a nervous breakdown at the airport...

I'm gonna go home tonight, but I'm so nervous. I keep getting the jmage of us getting into a huge fight and I know it won't happen but I'm afraid. I feel so bad and so guilty... I love you, Rei, please forgive me? I'll work on my problems more, I promise. I don't ever want to hurt you in any way, shape or form. That I have hurts me, too, and I feel like the biggest piece of garbage in the world...

♥Lacebun♡

Lacebun's Big Decision

I love where I work, I really and truly do. I have the kindest, coolest boss in the world and I've been very blessed by working here. Just from a financial standpoint, I probably make at least double what most people my age do. I've also gained a free education on how to run a business, as I've eluded to in the past.

I'm not quitting or leaving Janice hanging out to dry. I couldn't ever do that. Actually, she's very supportive of this decision I made and is helping me pay for it, as is Rei! :) Here goes...

I'm going to start going to Empire Beauty School in September. It will be part time and they're flexible so I can still work here. I'm taking a course in manicuring so I can do it as a career! :) I sit here painting my nails half the day anyway, I might as well do it as a career, right? My plan is to get the degree, all the licensing and crap and start a small shop of my own.

I have the money and the connections to get and pay for the space. My mom and dad, Janice and Rei have all promised that they'll do what needs to be done to invest in and support me in realizing this dream. I love you all and thank you oh so very much! God, I'm crying...again! Haha! ♥♥♥ I know Adrabun will be ecstatic about this, too, so thank you in advance for all you've done in building my confidence to help me get here and just being an amazing friend in general! Love you! ♥♥♥♥

Here I come! Grrr...meow!

Have a nice day, everybun!

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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Yay!

I don't want this to end!

Rei is so happy! :) I'm happy! Timothy is happy! And in love with me... Haha! ♥ I know it can't last forever, but that doesn't mean I don't want it to. Reibun told me to tell you that she's sorry for not being online today, but I think that's a little ridiculous. The internet can fucking wait. She's got her baby for one week and won't see him again for who knows how long.

I was crazy busy at work today and could only find time to squeak out a comment on Rei's blog this afternoon. We were all trying to finish up everything we could because we've got tomorrow off! Yay! And that fucking bitch I told you about last week is still at it. The materials came in earlier this week but now she wants progress reports! "Has it been started?", "Can I come in and see?", "How long will it take?" Etcetera, etcetera, etcetera! (The King and I) It hasn't been started yet, she needs it for Thanksgiving, for fuck sake! Is it bad that I take a Valium or two after every call? >.>

Anyway, all the work stuff is caught up. I even stayed till 5:30 doing the books and straightening/cleaning the whole place.

Timothy is so adorable. He's very polite and well-mannered and while not quite as extreme, he's got his mom's sense of humor. lol. He's good with the animals, too, and I guess they have several in NC. Ophelia and Juliet remembered him, but PervHam only seems to remember where our private areas are. *Eyeroll* Crumb is very afraid... lol Timothy walked in yesterday and Crumb barked, Timothy looked at him and said hi, then Crumb Bum hid in our closet all day, where he also peed all over the floor a bunch. *Sigh* The bunnies don't seem affected and he held Haku, but Misa kept trying to get away and nipped his hand. I also have Miss Chloe this weekend! :)

We all went out for dinner tonight. Rei had to drug herself hardcore, but it's fucking insane how much she can take and still function. She'll nod off a bit, her speech gets wonky, but otherwise you'd never know. She's also funny as hell! lol. It's like the drugs just bring out the insanely fucked up stand-up comedian in her. It was fun. We went to a Chinese restaurant called Maui in Brockton, where we used to live, and it was delicious! Rei was "commenting"(?) on people around us...

"Look at them over there," (a couple) "I bet he doesn't get her off. Cock is fucking obsolete, motherfucker. If we didn't need men for procreation, we could wipe them off the fucking planet. A sex toy can do everything you can and do it the right fucking way and with less mess and aggravation." Me to Timothy: "She loves YOU, sweetie. She just has a problem involving grownup stuff with boys." Rei: "Oh, fuck! I'm sorry baby. You'll make a girl very happy someday!" *Hugs him* Timothy: "I like 2 girls at school and they like me, I think." Rei: *Grin* ♥

We had a nice night. We got a few games at GameStop after dinner and have been playing since we got home. Rei put Timothy to bed at about 10:45 and now it's just us. She told me they put away some laundry today and he was in awe of one of my bras... *BLUUUUSSSSSHHHH* lol

Hope everybun had a nice day and evening!

XOXO

♥Lacebun♡

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Rei...

Rei is having a very emotional day and it's not all good. She was so happy to see Timothy and that went very well and Cathy said that it was a beautiful moment she'll never forget. But they went to lunch with all of them, including Rob, and she sort of lost it... :(

They were just talking and she had this surge of quickly changing emotions. She started apologizing, then she got mad and started yelling at Rob and it went back to being apologetic. Timothy got upset and she's mad at herself for that. Rob took her outside to talk (they almost got kicked out of the restaurant) and he got her calmed down and he held her and she gave him a kiss, which she's now also upset about because she didn't want to hurt me. *Deep breath*

I told her this already, but I'm putting it here so she can re-read it any time:

It was a kiss, honey. You didn't sleep with him or do anything underhanded and I AM NOT HURT. He is the father of your baby and you've known him for 11 years and been through hell and back with him more than once. I know you don't love him, but I also know there are feelings that can't just be pushed aside. Everything you're going through is hard, but maybe that release of feelings will help in the long run. I love you, Rachael, and there is no way in hell that I could be mad at you after all you've been through.

Timothy is out with Cathy right now and she's at home trying to get herself together. He's ok, I guess, and I'm leaving work early to go be with her. I love you, Rei, please don't ever think I'd leave you, because I never ever will. :) ♥♥♥♥

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Made a decision

Just wanted to let everybun know that Rei and Cathy are in Boston at the airport waiting for Timothy and Rob to show up. They couldn't have timed it any better as it is pouring buckets right now and thundering. It should be gone in an hour or so and the plane should be on time.

I decided to bow out and just come into work, even though I could've taken the day off and gone with. It's not that I didn't want to go or anything, but it's Rei's moment. She and Cathy have been there all ten years of his life and it's their family. I don't feel unwelcome, I just wanted them to have that for themselves, just as I did on Michael's birthday.

I'm very excited to meet him and we're gonna have a nice time tonight and in the coming week! :) Eeeeeee!

XOXO