Some (Very) Personal Stuff

Rei is an inspiration to me in many ways, but her post last night and a lot of the posts she does always sorta leave me in awe of how much of an open book she is. I know my mom reads my blog and I'm sorry to her and anyone else that finds what I'm about to write to be TMI. Of course, by saying that, I've just enticed more people to keep reading! Haha! You know you love it! :p

That's me at age 19. First you'll notice the cute little guinea pig. That is my exes pet that I took in after he went to prison. His name was Oreo and I loved him very much. I came home from college one evening to find him dead in his cage. He was just a baby and he seemed fine that morning, I really don't know what happened. :( 

I didn't post that to reminisce about dead pets, though. Look at my midsection, what do you see? Mmhmm, fat rolls. I haven't always been thin, I was a pudgy kid and it lasted until I did something about it when I came to MA. I went to the gym every day and worked on my belly, mostly. I started doing yoga at home, too. Now my weight is primarily in my tits and ass. I'm very self-conscious about the latter. After I had my car accident, I stopped doing the gym and yoga thing. I've been in a lot of pain the past 2 years and honestly, I've just been lucky that the belly fat hasn't come back. With Rei going back to belly dancing in the amount of pain she deals with, I've decided to go back to yoga and doing a light workout every morning! :) And yep, I've ordered some cute workout clothes! :p

Of course, Rei being Rei, the first thing she noticed about that photo was my hard nipple. lol That's fully erect for me, they're tiny, too. No Milk Daggers like some people have... hehe!

I know I've told you that I can't have babies, but I haven't mentioned that my reproductive organs have all but stopped working. I haven't had a period since last November. I know, all you ladies probably think I'm lucky, and I agree to a point. But that also means that there's something wrong inside of me. I had one every month until about a year ago, then they started becoming irregular and eventually just stopped. I've had ultrasounds and everything to make sure there wasn't cancer or anything, but they said it looked ok. That was when they were just irregular, I haven't seen a doctor since they've stopped. I don't know if I'm walking around with dead/useless organs inside of me or what, but I made an appointment this morning to find out. This has been a major source of anxiety for me and hopefully I'll get some answers that will relieve it.

Speaking of that region of the body, I'm abnormally small down there. My doctors here and back home have remarked on it (I only see female doctors for that stuff, btw) as has Rei. Sex is better with her for a lot of reasons, but primarily because she's gentle with me and when things get a little more... adventurous... she checks to make sure she's not hurting me. She got scared during our first time because she thought she was hurting me, but I'm just very sensitive. My ex didn't care. I'm not trying to glorify him, but he was big and he didn't give a shit that he hurt me every time and made me bleed. I'd walk around hurting for days. :/ I hope your big pecker is Bubba's prize possession and he tattooed his name on it with a dirty needle, fuckhead! The night he raped me and tried to kill me, he tore me apart in more ways than one.

I've been working on this post since I got to work today, I hope I haven't put anyone off to me. I have a strange little body, don't I? lol 

There's not a lot going on here today, it's been pretty average so far. Karen's firing is the talk of the office and it is so pleasant without her here! It smells much better, too! Janice is everyone's hero today and my work moms have all checked on me to make sure I'm ok. I love them! :) I've gotta start putting the word out that we're now in need of a new employee at some point today. Now it's lunchtime/DJ Bunny Girl's Party Hour! lol 

Pictures first!

I tried to get my eyeshadow to match my little Beetle Brooch (Say that five times fast!). How'd I do?

My name isn't Lacey for nothing! :p

Misa baby in the morning sun! :) Widescreen Edition.

This is me babysitting Buck around Christmas time last year at Brianne's house. I told you he loves to eat tights, unfortunately I'm not very good at snapping pics with bunny teeth in my leg. :p 

Tip of the day: This is for you "gentlemen" out there. Instead of being a jackoff and asking a girl if the carpet matches the drapes, or if you just don't feel comfortable asking if it's her natural hair color (which is usually more welcome than the first one) look at her eyebrows. Even women who dye their hair usually don't bother to change their eyebrow color. Your answer lies there. As the Pagans say; As above, and so below. ;)

Have a nice day, everybun! :)

XOXO

♥Lacey♡

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