I really am trying to stay positive and keep my mind occupied. Every hour that passes that I don't get a call or text that something bad has happened is another good sign that everything is gonna be ok. I know that this is just part one, though. It takes athletes months to recover from something like this. Their bodies are in top physical condition, Rei's is not. It's going to be a long road ahead and while I'm up to the challenge, I wouldn't be being truthful with myself if I said that all thats been happening lately hasn't taken a physical and mental toll on me, too.
I know it's worse for her, she has to deal with the pain and everything else, but it has been very hard to watch and see the one I care about most deal with all of this. I'm very rundown, though. Taking her everywhere she needs to go, doing all the errands, then having to deal with our finances, working, my medical issues, etc. I know, it's life and shit happens. I'm not bitching, complaining or giving up on her or myself or anyone.
I'm just in a lot of new territory in my life right now and it has been a lot to take in over the past few months. I'm not even asking for a break from any of it, I just needed to express how I feel and where I'm at in life.
I know it's worse for her, she has to deal with the pain and everything else, but it has been very hard to watch and see the one I care about most deal with all of this. I'm very rundown, though. Taking her everywhere she needs to go, doing all the errands, then having to deal with our finances, working, my medical issues, etc. I know, it's life and shit happens. I'm not bitching, complaining or giving up on her or myself or anyone.
I'm just in a lot of new territory in my life right now and it has been a lot to take in over the past few months. I'm not even asking for a break from any of it, I just needed to express how I feel and where I'm at in life.
Rei had this on before they took her in this morning. I've hardly put it down today.
♥Lacey♡
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I hear you, love. Caring for someone is NOT easy, no matter how much you love them. My mom had the same sort of thing with my grandmother. You can absolutely adore someone and yet become exhausted with the pressures and stress. We are all, unfortunately human, and we tire. And yeah, you've definitely had a lot change drastically in the past few months! That on its own is overwhelming. You're doing an amazing job, and there's a light ahead now. *hugs* I love you, Bunny Girl
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Adra! I totally agree with you. I'm really trying to adjust and deal with a lot at the same time and I'm glad you think I'm doing a good job. *Hugs* I'm just glad that the most stressful part is over and that Cathy has agreed to help with taking her to physical therapy and stuff. :) Love you too, Adra! Hope your night went ok! XOXO ♥♥♥
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