Miserable Bunny

I got sent home from work yesterday because I was sick. I think I might have the flu. :( I have a horrible, stuffy head, fever/chills and my body hurts all over. I drugged myself with all sorts of decongestants and crap so I could sleep last night. I slept, but I didn't feel much better when I woke up. *Sigh*

Rei is coming home tomorrow and she's doing better than the doctor thought she would. She won't be belly dancing anytime soon, but she's doing ok, all things considered. :) I wish I could go see her, but they won't let me because of the risk of making her or someone else sick. All the things you can get in the hospital, and they're worried about the flu... lol. No, I totally understand.

Sorry, no pictures till I'm better.

Have a nice day, everybun!

XOXO

♥Lacey♡

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Stressed

I really am trying to stay positive and keep my mind occupied. Every hour that passes that I don't get a call or text that something bad has happened is another good sign that everything is gonna be ok. I know that this is just part one, though. It takes athletes months to recover from something like this. Their bodies are in top physical condition, Rei's is not. It's going to be a long road ahead and while I'm up to the challenge, I wouldn't be being truthful with myself if I said that all thats been happening lately hasn't taken a physical and mental toll on me, too.

I know it's worse for her, she has to deal with the pain and everything else, but it has been very hard to watch and see the one I care about most deal with all of this. I'm very rundown, though. Taking her everywhere she needs to go, doing all the errands, then having to deal with our finances, working, my medical issues, etc. I know, it's life and shit happens. I'm not bitching, complaining or giving up on her or myself or anyone.

I'm just in a lot of new territory in my life right now and it has been a lot to take in over the past few months. I'm not even asking for a break from any of it, I just needed to express how I feel and where I'm at in life.

Rei had this on before they took her in this morning. I've hardly put it down today.

♥Lacey♡

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Lace's Cases!

Yeah, I know it's very late. Rei has had a very hard day and I've been trying to be there for her every second I can. Her pain has ramped up again and she's very anxious about the surgery. I'm sure it's not helping, her being so tense. Nor are the couple of panic attacks she's had today. I've had plenty, so I know what to do, but it's scary seeing them happen to someone else... I finally got her to bed a little bit ago. I took most of the pics of these iPhone cases today, one is of a case that I don't have any longer and luckily still had a photo of. Enjoy!

This is the one I mentioned. My first one, too. Painted with nail polish and using a technique called Sponging that I learned from my ancient master, Intaneto, the skulls are just from a nail stamping plate with some colored rhinestones glued on.

Just an iPhone case, a shitload of stones and stickers. 

This is the last one I made and I used it up until I got the bunny one. A ton of nail polish and sponging, stones and more stickers. None of them were incredibly complicated. Simple tip: Buy extra cases!!!! Get the cheapest ones you can and either practice on them or just make these type of cases and use them for decoration/special occasions and buy a nicer one if you need it. 

Hope everybun is having a nice weekend! This bun is going to bed!

XOXO

♥Lacey♡

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You are NOT a burden!

Rei keeps apologizing for me "having" to take care of her. You are my wife, Rachael. In sickness and in health, remember? And don't anyone worry, we're not having problems or arguments or anything, I just wanted to drive this home in as many ways as possible. I love you and I know I don't have to do it, I want to! :)

If I weren't in my current career field, if I'd gone to school for something else, my next choice was the medical field. I like helping people and this is kind of a way for me to live another dream in my own little way. You've already made so many of my other dreams come true, honey. ♥♥♥♥♥♥ I will see this through the whole way and I'm gonna do all of it with a smile. I love you, Rei, and I want our lives together to last as long as they can and be as happy as they can be. Please don't ever think of yourself as a burden to me. You are the best part of each and every day for me, no matter what. I love you more than anything in the world. ♥ *Kisses*

Wearing my torso skeleton sweater (it was cold this morning!) my pink hair that a special girl did for me, despite being in pain and the Hello Kitty necklace she gave me for our three month anniversary. Friday February 13th 2015 was the luckiest day of my life. ♥♥♥

Hope everybun is having a nice day, and Happy Friday!

XOXO

♥Lacey♡

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Bunny Girl Funnies: News Makers!

As far as I know, these are all REAL...

USA! USA! USA! 

*Facepalm*

A few random ones...

And this is just too adorable...

*DIES OF CUTE-ITIS*

Have a nice day, everybun! :)

XOXO

♥Lacey♡

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Is there something wrong...

I'm really bothered by the fact that throughout my mid/late teens and now my early twenties a question keeps popping up about my personality. It's not just from strangers, people on the internet or psychotic siblings either. It has come from friends, family and coworkers. A lot of them have to build up the nerve or try to ask indirectly, its even slipped out in conversation.

They always want to know if I have some childlike fetish or personality disorder that makes me the way I am. Because I like cute things and buy lots of things with cartoony designs or characters on them, etc., I must be some weirdo that wants to stay a little girl forever and then sexualizes all of it. It really hurts me that people think such things.

I've been asked by my sister (who just uses it as another way to insult and hate me), many former friends, my ex, my mom and a few people who work here. Rei has never brought it up, but I've talked to her about it and she's said that even if I did have some sort of disorder her feelings for me wouldn't change and she doesn't think I'm some sort of sicko. I overheard a conversation between two people here this morning (Not Cathy or Janice, I've talked to both of them about this) talking about how Rei must feel like a pedophile when she's with me and how my work area looks like it belongs to a five year old girl... That I'm a sick little dyke who needs help. I've been holding back tears and anger all day. These women are always so nice to me to my face, always complimenting me and they were so happy for me when I got married. I don't visit my co-workers or anything, but I like to consider them friends. Some friends.

Everything boils down to sex, it's fucking disgusting. What fucking business is it of anyone as to what I do or how I act with my wife behind closed doors? Maybe there is something wrong with me, but if so, am I hurting you or anyone? Does my personality or anything I do affect your lives in any way? As long as I'm not hurting anyone and I'm happy and not forcing myself or my way of life on you, mind your own fucking business. What I spend my money on, my sex life, how I decorate or what I wear is my goddamn business and if your life is so empty that you have to sit there and let your mind concoct sick fantasies about what I do in bed, maybe it's time to stop worrying about me and work on you.

No pictures today, wouldn't want to gross anyone out or turn them away with my child fetish... Gonna go cry in the bathroom now.

What is this work?

I'm back at work today and not really doing much of anything. Cathy came and picked me up this morning and how anyone can be that cheerful and perky that early is beyond me. She came in to check on her baby girl and brought her breakfast. Rei is in so much pain... :( Our neighbor gave her a bunch more Neurontin and between that, the Vicodin and Soma, she's mildly functional. She's not abusing anything, she just needs more because she's hurting so bad.

I made her an appointment with an Orthopedist, but if this doesn't yield results, Cathy and I are taking her to Boston. This has been going on too long and I don't blame her for her reluctance about going to get treatment, nobody has helped her thus far. She's willing to undergo any procedure they throw at her, but no one has given her that option yet. It breaks my heart to see her in this state and pisses me off that nobody will help. If you read this before I get home, Rei sweetie, I got you a few games, a bunch of snacks, a new heating pad, more pain cream and Janice gave me a little something to give you so you don't have to keep taking so many pills. I'd rather not say what it is here, though. (It's not Heroin)

Anyway, there's not much going on here today. I've cleaned/straightened everything, placed orders, confirmed appointments (all 2 of them) and played a lot of Starcraft. lol Luckily the rain hasn't been as insane as they were predicting, but they did say there would be a lull before it picked up again. Hopefully it won't be too bad for the ride home.

Hmm, so little to do... Guess I'll paint my nails and go back to killing aliens. :) Pictures first!

Squirrels today! :) Took that this morning with little bats on my nails. That will change soon! 

Artsy shot Rei took of Misa over the weekend! :) ♥

Haku before her bath. Believe it or not, she LOVES the water!

Haku is the dominant bunny. She and Misa have separate cages and they play nice most of the time, but Haku is bigger and Misa always backs down if she pisses off Haku. 

Rei actually named Haku. Her full name is Hakushi (White Angel) but we just shortened it.

Rei and Juliet taking a nap! Awww! ♥♥♥

Hope everybun is having a nice day! :) 

XOXO

♥Lacey♡

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